my ambivalent attitude

Sunday, May 14, 2006

It's little wonder how great an effect jogging has on me these days. With the numerous unpleasant encounters in camp lately, I feel like an oversized bird in a miniature cage, struggling within myself and fidgeting to break loose. Armed with a stack of email complaints, CSM issued us an ultimatum, expecting us to adhere doggedly to the rules of the game, while brandishing an axe with the phrase "BMT Style" emblazoned on it. But take a careful look to comprehend the whole picture! A ruffian who bore a close resemblance of me appeared to be sneaking up behind CSM, breaking into maniacal and raucous laughter and pointing a gun close to her rounded waist. If you are from CCC, you should know what I'm insinuating at. And before I know it, my hair was reduced to an uneven and spiky mesh.

The iron fist that ruffian promised is encroaching on us day by day. Just when I was creeping into deep sleep at midnight before my guard duty last Thursday, Teddy jolted me awake, gesturing animatedly at a turn-out, while I peeked through my groggy and puffy eyes, wondering whether I was dreaming of my UIP days. Was it a bit too late to conduct a roll call, even if the purpose was justifiable? And to make matters worse, I was awarded another guard duty in the later part of the month. I tried to think of the wise saying "Nothing is fair in this world", but it didn't drive away the common question "Why me?". What makes me even more infuriated is that whoever planned the duty did not even make it a point to ask or inform me, it's not as if my points are the lowest in the platoon.

Going back to my first point made, I presume jogging has became the only avenue through which I can relieve my neurotic behaviour, purge the poisons from my body and revitalise my senses. Visiting the fruits store and indulging in the eye-rolling variety of citrous fruits afterwards served to consummate the renewal process. I am counting on more of these refreshing experiences to negate the atrocities in that confined space!

scribbled at 8:47 PM