my ambivalent attitude

Friday, April 14, 2006

Having gained some equanimity after the disastrous interview which spoils my appetite just thinking of that supercilious PhD, I decided to force myself to come to terms with the results whatever it is and stop wallowing in self-pity. Ultimately, it will be just a overseas experience I will be losing, and I think the prospect of going overseas weighed too heavily on me previously before the interview. Not that I don't relish an US education now, but I guess I have resorted to comforting myself that I can still go in future for my PhD studies. And never will I allow myself to acquire such pomposity even if I have a PhD...

scribbled at 2:05 PM