my ambivalent attitude

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

How I adore babies! Met my one-year-old baby cousin Lishan for the first time at my maternal grandparents' house today and I was indeed over the moon! The pretty cherubic face, the delicate puny limbs and the multitude of facial expressions and emotions she could present fascinated me. Enjoyed myself thoroughly playing with her and trying to inveigle her into embracing the hugs of my father, which she seemed to have a distaste for. (She gave a grunt whenever my father tried to carry her, but appeared to like me though:P)

Had a talk with my close aunt next at her house, the one who works as a teacher at my alma mater, South View Primary. How ill-informed I realised I was when everybody in my family except me happened to know of the episode whereby one of my cousins Xiuling actually left home after an acrimonious confrontation with her father until the first day of CNY. Look at the bridge the army has created between me and my family! Anyway, I was not at all really surprised though. Her father is a kind who is damn strict towards the upbringing of his children and one who advocates corporeal punishment. Torn between the rigid regimentation and idealistic expectations of his father and her own ideals and hanker for extreme freedom, I would say it's natural for her to seek a mean to escape from the immense pressure. However, maybe her method used is wrong. Well, I do not know how to help her but one thing my siblings and I can do is to communicate with her more often.

My first wave of yu sheng this afternoon at home! :)

scribbled at 9:10 PM